When I think about the holiday season coming quickly upon us, I cant help but stop and reflect on this past year. So much has happened in my life, it sometimes takes my breath away. People have walked in and out of my life, relationships have come and gone, my relationship with my family has strengthened tremendously, and I have grown quite a bit.
With all that said, I think back to New Years last year. I remember that night like it was yesterday. Surrounded by some amazing people, creating amazing memories with a constant smile across my face. I look back at that night, and many other amazing nights, and I miss those times. I guess that’s what people mean when growing up sucks.
Decisions are made with consequences, both good and bad. I’ve made choices that I’m not proud of, but also many I am. Apologies are always kind; and I apologize to those that I have hurt, and hope that my words will find them peace. Hopefully this year to come has more positive to offer me. I say to all of those that I have grown distant with know that I wish them a wonderful holiday, and a very happy new year, and that I do think of them.
“We have all done things we weren’t proud of. I understand that. I know nobody’s perfect, but how do you live with it? How do you get up every morning knowing you could have done better, that you should have done better? Is being sorry enough? Can an apology actually heal our wounds? Ease our pain? Can it undo the hurt that we’ve caused?”
If that’s what being an adult feels like, fuck that noise. Can’t seem to be winning lately.
Positivity is really hard to find at the moment.